severe blocks

I have tried all forms of healing, plant journey’s and ayuasca once. my subconscious kicks in and won’t let me let go I’m so depressed and feel like I’m drowning. I have no joy. I just go to work and go home to bed. my husband is supportive he misses the person I used to be. can a healing on zoom with jerry help me? I’m listening to the IW meditations, but can’t do live because of work schedule 🙏